Your Thoughts are Higher than Mine

That's what spoke to me today.
I love that everytime I go to church I leave changed.
Today I didn't have to play for the whole service, but I did have to wait back stage so I could play soft music at the end of the message. Afterwards I exited the stage and stood behind the curtains in the dark while the band played,

"Your thoughts are higher than mine,
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice, here is my life."

Alone in the darkness I was able to completely let go and worship without thinking or worrying about who was watching or listening. Covered in goosebumps I had an awesome time in God's presence.
Lately I have been trying to convince God when I pray...like I know what He needs to do and when He needs to be doing it and I need to enlightened Him...how arrogant can I be???
His thoughts are so much higher than mine.
His words are deeper, His love is stronger.

When I furvantly pray for God to effect our lives I forget that He loves us so much deeper than I could ever fathom.
When I speak eloquent words in an effort to impress the living God I forget that His vocabulary makes mine seem like Caden's, 'ga's.'
When I dream up exactly the way I want my life to be, the kind of life I want for my husband and aspirations I have for my son I forget that what God has dreamt up is not only so much greater, but it's perfect...it's the only way.

I think I'm going to hide backstage during worship more often. A beautiful moment with the drama props and the rats of Leon High School.