Grumpy Bear

I'm in a bad mood today...can't really shake it...maybe I shouldn't be writing when I feel this way, but writing is what I do when I can't sleep and I certainly can't sleep right now. I'm annoyed, flustered, concerned, sick, irritated, tired...all for probably no good reason...everyone has these days I'm sure, although most don't advertise it.
Caden woke up at 5am, throwing up, and has had a fever/cough all day. He is still his energetic self so I don't think it's anything too serious...just a little bug which I'm sure he'll be over in no time. That wasn't a great way for either of us to start the day...
I confess, this morning I became very overwhelmed by mess and allowed it to rob my joy. It's funny how dirt and clutter can put a woman in a foul mood. We have a lot of living things in our house so the mess piles up quickly and makes me crazy. I never use to feel this way about my house until I had Caden...then suddenly my house was not only my home but my workspace...and when things are out of place, I just don't function properly...I fear I'll be worse after baby X (as we so affectionately have named him/her) arrives.
So the fatigue coupled with the crabby/sick toddler plus the never ending mess multiplied by some other annoyances has made me a bit of a grumpy bear today. What can I say?

Roar

I think we should probably add hormones to that mix as well. I am not as sick with this pregnancy as I was with Caden but I believe I am much more hormonal...the insomnia is a product of that, not to mention the sudden OCD I have...I don't think I've been super mean to anyone but if I have, I'm sure it's been Jay and I publicly apologize ;)
All of this to say...well...nothing at all, really. This is not encouraging, uplifting or eye opening in anyway...if anything, it was a venting session, a crabby confession and a way to tire myself out in hopes of getting to sleep before 2am...but if you took the time to read it, I thank you.

Tomorrow will be a better day.